May 2011
42 posts
The Last 30-30
Please come easy.
Simplicity don’t become the failure you sometimes set yourself up as..
Permanently.
Patiently strum a tune on an old guitar..
Maybe beautiful distractions side-swipe the real problems on the highway to self-understanding.
That even SOUNDS accidentally destructive..
Try to purge and pluck the thoughts out….
With my bare hands
Now numb from the attempt…...
April 2011
23 posts
4 tags
Untitled... "Ego So Strong"
I think I talk too much
I tell too much of my own story…
Instead of being read.. I open up and
Read myself to you..
As if…
As if I’m afraid you’ll
Mispronounce my heart..
Or put the accents of my emotions..
In all the wrong places..
Suppose that’s my control thing kicking in…
Trying to monitor and track the flow of traffic
When it comes to knowledge...
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Tick. Ti-Ti-Tick. Tock.
Shit is about to be super DRY around here. I can’t drink coffee… or alcohol. No stress, anxiety, or….. well, excitement of any sort. Dry. Dry. DRYYYYYY. These doctors need to fix my ticker ASAP. At least so I can drink coffee again. My mom is funny…. she goes, “Well, try drinking decaf. At least for the taste.” LMAOOOOO. Mommy, Nooooooooo! How in the world am I...
Redbull and Vodka.
all i’ve ever wanted was freedom… reaching behind me, i found my wings in all the lessons, all the triumphs.. all the struggles of my past. all i’ve ever wanted was to live… so i stopped being afraid to feel. dealt with everything that came in front of me.. first deciding if it was even necessary.. but then i started spreading my wings. so i’m out here now—...
trying....
in her i inject such time, such patience… passionate urgency, but i know i should wait this out… maybe inergi is all she needs… maybe all she needs is not in me.. a constant pull on my respiration mid-conversation… i wonder will it ever be easy to breathe in, breathe out what i feel… fear clutches me by the throat just how i like it… a soft restraint holding me...
and now i understand....
and now i understand… i figured out why my eyes burn and.. how songs are made that last forever. the hurt behind lyrics that touch our souls… how we end up being music… tears turn us into staffs and treble cleffs… and we’re never sure how until the beginning notes play a sigh of relief takes hold.. and then the song cries… it saves the day.
From:...
You can’t possibly..
Make love to me
As if you are
In love with me…
But with on-going kisses
And immense intensity…
I may be fooled.
Gladly.
Thoughts from a day in my Past...
thoughts from my day i don’t know much about love… sometimes it feels good though— warms you from the outside in.. John Legend said it hurts sometimes thats.. if you you do it right… because people aren’t perfect and eyes wander even when your heart stands still. but then i say… there’s a fine line between needing some forgiving tenderness ...
“You think your pain and your heartbreak are unprecedented in the history of the...”
– James Baldwin (via oceanofmind)
The Challenge
Background Story: Last night I went to Busboys & Poets in DC (on U Street) because they hVe Open Mic on Tuesday’s. I was there with my co-worker lovies and friends… To say I was inspired is an understatement. One of my co-worker lovies, Ray, actually writes poetry… he’s considering taking the stage himself. So… I decided to “challenge” him. I even let...
The Light
But what light I find inside me
is what will ultimately aid me
in keeping her.
They don’t hear me though…
See.. Everybody’s got their something
Accept the reflection, the representatives..
Even the inner demons..
Flow freely with the struggles that
Muddle your crystal clear waters
With frustration..
Or in other words..
Please hold on tight to your Light
Even if it means...
Still finding my way thru it....
I… am blank.. a canvas just itching for some paint.. Waiting for visual words to form and make a story of “How come…” Here I am, laid out in anxious anticipation. When will this feeling to subside? Can’t even really describe it. My brain is mush….
Spring Heat (Challenge Submission #2 4.4.11)
Spring Heat The trees reach down to greet me. I’m walking everywhere with intense purpose, but never too busy to marvel at the beauty they possess.. The shadows they cast make afternoon breezes that much cooler. Enough to make a hair or two stand up for applause and appreciation. I love it… The sun gives me such sweet kisses as it peeks through the limbs. My smile radiates from...
Flames (Challenge Submission #1 4.3.11)
Flames Wanna be on fire Wanna set sail on An ocean of flames.. Ignore all the warnings.. Caution is a still wind Waiting for my next move.. Gave up on resisting, Walking across the coals, Only second thoughts but No actual pain. Ready for the dance of Our kind.. Opposites playing the same game I blame myself for the Beginning.. But you know just how To set someone like me On...
